Today's track on repeat
this one really scratches all the little bits of my #adhd brain
Today's track on repeat
this one really scratches all the little bits of my #adhd brain
@alice @axnxcamr @actuallyautistic @davep Kid in the “gifted” track here, diagnosed with #ADHD in my forties, parent of #autistic kid. I think everyone learns to do whatever works at the time, until they level up and it stops working. As a parent, I feel it’s my job to help kids acknowledge when they need a new technique, and point out that not everything works for everyone (“just make a list and check things off”). And don’t rule out meds. When something incredibly difficult becomes doable just 20 minutes after the right dose, it’s unconscionable to make kids struggle purely in the name of Protestant Work Ethic.
I seriously hope the Brain Worm Dude doesn't get the confirmation. I take both Adderall and Paxil (an SSRI).
A wellness farm isn't going to cure my ADHD. A wellness farm isn't going to cure my clinical anxiety.
https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2024/nov/25/rfk-jr-prescription-drugs-cannabis-psychedelics
Mein Buchstabensalat umfasst viele Abkürzungen: LGBTQ, ASS, ME/CFS, LC/PC und seit heute eine neue! Und zwar ADHS!
Katherine has a very important view of accountability vs. commitment partnership for ADHDers... that traditional approaches to accountability trigger our shame, avoidance, and "not good enough."
"We need someone who can support and share our purpose, and cheer us on... and help look at what the roadblocks might be."
- ADHD Coach, S. Katherine Sanders
A lot of #ADHD folks have "too many tools and not enough foundation. It's like trying to build a house on dodgy sand."
- S. Katherine Sanders, ADHD Coach
This event is happening live right now
(join Katherine's list to hear about replays and future events!)
It's easy to feel no one wants to hear your point of view when you are the outsider.
Does anyone else feel some people are more likely to be heard?
How does this affect your self worth?
New on ADHD ftw! Energy management https://ift.tt/3ZDyYHO #ADHD #AuDHD #neurodivergent
My autistic ADHD mind is struggling today, so I tried to write down some of my thoughts on Medium; doing that has helped.
This Ko-fi post includes a friend link, so non-members can read it free of charge.
https://ko-fi.com/post/Overwhelmed-but-Hanging-On-H2H116KJIN
Episode 95 - The Key to Envisioning Your New Year
From the archives! Episode 95 explores the creative process and how it relates to setting inspiring and attainable goals for the new year.
https://www.drummerandthegreatmountain.com/adult-adhd-add-tips-and-support-podcast-the-key-to-envisioning-your-new-year
#adhd #neurodivergent #GoalSetting
I was so sad yesterday because I was about to get the blood test that I desperately needed (since I've been struggling to get appointments and reaching there on time), but then after getting TWO JABS on BOTH arms, there's was no blood flowing...
Then I realized I should have drank a lot of water beforehand, and I was feeling cold in the morning after I woke up. I should have known... I always forget important shit :'(
I came home with my arms in pain. I can't believe I've been so eager for the very thing that I dreaded throughout my early life. Yet I couldn't even get it when I'm at my bravest. The fucking irony...
Oops, suddenly back up to 15 tabs
Turns out I'm shadow banned on #TikTok.
Apparently too #AdultAutistic a vibe for their freaking algorithm.
You got a spare share in ya for a fellow #Neurodivergent #Autistic #ADHD #AuDHD creator?
I could use your support.
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTYMG5LaW/
Helpful community note:
Tip for other #ActuallyAutistic bloggers, YouTubers, etc.
Elon Musk has been burying any X post that contains a link.
Best practice? Include the link in a reply to your first post.
You should see higher interaction.
#autistic #Autist #AskingAutistics #Neurodiversity #Neurodivergent
@actuallyautistic @actuallyautistics @actuallyaudhd @actuallyadhd
Turns out I'm shadow banned on #TikTok.
Apparently too #AdultAutistic a vibe for their freaking algorithm.
You got a spare share in ya for a fellow #Neurodivergent #Autistic #ADHD #AuDHD creator?
I could use your support.
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTYMG5LaW/
Helpful community note:
Tip for other #ActuallyAutistic bloggers, YouTubers, etc.
Elon Musk has been burying any X post that contains a link.
Best practice? Include the link in a reply to your first post.
You should see higher interaction.
Overdue update on mental health - CW for references to meds, depression, anxiety, executive dysfunction, institutional failures, bigotry, world conflicts, job struggles, and dark thoughts - please **only** read if you're in a good state yourself/ves
Hey folks
Apologies that it's taken us so long to write this update for y'all. Suffice to say, we've not had the executive function, time, or spoons to do so until now
For anyone who's not been following us for long, we've been on the StruggleBus™ for a long while now. In fact, our depression would almost certainly be described as chronic, even if it's somewhat under control.
Why are we depressed? SO many reasons, but some of the big ones are:
... and many more things besides
Whilst we have a formal diagnosis for autism (Autism Spectrum Disorder) from 2018, we're still on a waiting list for an ADHD assessment sadly We're actually on 2 waiting lists: the NHS one (which we went on first) and one for ADHD 360, which our NHS GP surgery referred us to under the Right To Choose.
Consequently, we cannot get any ADHD medication on NHS prescription to see whether it might help.
Our depression hadn't been helped on venlafaxine (an SNRI), even at the maximum dose of 375 mg with the extended / slow release tablets.
To try to combat this, we asked our NHS GP to switch us to sertraline (an SSRI) and bupropion (an atypical antidepressant and NDRI), so that we'd have our serotonin, noradrenaline, and dopamine levels raised. Sadly our local NHS ICB wouldn't allow my GP surgery to prescribe bupropion for us for any reasons, but sertraline was no issue.
So, we gradually lowered our venlafaxine dose (by 12.5 mg every other day) until we reached 150 mng daily, then cross-tapered with sertraline until we were solely on sertraline at 100 mg daily. We acquired bupropion from outside the NHS and began taking 1 tablet (150 mg, extended release) daily. This helped a lot with focus, energy, and executive function, but it wasn't enough to keep us functional enough, so we went up to 150 mg sertraline daily, and eventually the max dose of 200 mg daily.
Even with these doses, there was only so much that the meds could carry. So, we started reducing how much help and support we offered others in the community, as this was draining us. We even sadly paused streaming on Twitch, which we used to love doing We'd already broken the habit of doomscrolling or checking the news daily long beforehand, but due to the communities we're a part of and our current job role, there's only so much hate and suffering we could block out.
Eventually, it broke us. We have been signed off work since 28th October and have an extended fitness note last until 3rd December (inclusive).
During this time, after a lot of research, we took a gamble to see if it might help us: switching from bupropion to [atomoxetine](Atomoxetine), which is most-commonly used to help with ADHD.
As we don't yet have a formal ADHD diagnosis, we couldn't get this through the NHS, so had to acquire it elsewhere. We were able to do this as it's not on the UK controlled substances list, presumably because it's not a stimulant. Instead, it's an sNRI, which boosts noradrenaline and dopamine levels.
In theory, it sounded really good. In reality, it was one of the most awful experiences of our life... and considering we've experienced some truly traumatic things in our life, that's really saying something
We started off on a low dose of atomoxetine (20 mg) and gradually increased it up to 40 mg over the first week, rather than jumping in a 40 mg. We then gradually tapered up to 80 mg daily by the end of the next week, rather than just doubling the dose.
The effects were not overnight, but those 2 weeks were a nightmarish blur. The effects came on gradually, so we didn't spot them as being linked to the medication at first. Additionally, as one of the effects was increasing brain fog, it made it harder to think.
It didn't stop with brain fog though. We became irritable, restless, constantly tired, more depressed, more anxious, and more RSD-prone. We had increasing passive suicidal thoughts, which were beginning to tip us over the edge into the void.
Early into the 3rd week, we realised that we could no longer hear or communicate with our headmate, Hannah. It's hard to describe how we felt at that moment, but it's like having a piece of you torn out, taken away, or hidden from you. The best descriptions we can think of are extreme despair and feeling isolated and alone in our mind.
We stopped atomoxetine cold turkey, and resumed taking 150 mg bupropion daily the next morning.
There were side-effects (especially the first night) from doing this, but it was worth it to start to become functional again. It was only over the next few days that we realised just how negatively the atomoxetine had affected us, how intolerably painful it had made existing, and how close it had pushed us to the brink of the void.
The only good that came out of it was that it put many things into perspective for us, like how relatively lucky we've been with sertraline and bupropion, how resilient we've become in spite of all odds, and how we need to get out of our current job ASAP.
It also highlighted to us how fragile our existence is that a change in one medication could affect us so profoundly and dangerously. And, sadly, atomoxetine was our best hope for a prescription ADHD med, as we don't do well with stimulants typically. Methylphenidate (a stimulant and NDRI) is still a potential option, but it cannot replace bupropion as even the extended release version has too short an elimination half-life (2-3 hours) and duration of action (6-12 hours). For context and comparison, bupropion breaks down quickly (~1 hour) into 3 metabolites with long elimination half-lives (hydroxybupropion 20 hours; threohydrobupropion 37 hours; erythrohydrobupropion 33 hours).
After getting back stabily on bupropion at 150 mg daily, we've today increased our dose to 225 mg, as it's the only variable we can change right now to see whether it helps us.
Anyway, we've written a lot there, and it's past time for us to get some lunch.
Hope this provides more detail for everyone about why we've been so absent and down.
@innervisioner @actuallyautistic @GinevraCat @AnAutieAtUni @A_bee I don’t have autism but my #ADHD is out of control since #perimenopause hit. I didn’t even realize that would happen, everything I’ve learned about perimenopause I’ve learned from social media even though I regularly see many doctors and specialists and a gynecologist or two. They don’t tell you shit.
I hope I’m welcome even though I’m not autistic because I’m really struggling with this new hormonal problem lol and I can’t get HRT because I have endometriosis and migraines with aura. Fun!
(Edited because “autistic” was “artistic” and while I am not artistic either, that’s not the point.)
Thanks to @actuallyautistic folk yesterday on a Q of exec function.
I’m checking out the demand & preferred name for a new group for #AuDHD “women of a certain age”, I.e. menopausal or post-meno lasses.
How about @AuDHDcrones (at a.gup.pe) for a snappy descriptor? As we’re not maidens anymore.
Too insulting?
@AuDHDmeno? @AuDHDauldgal?
Suggestions welcome
Most of my #ADHD coping mechanisms revolve around tricking my brain into doing things and if my brain ever wises up I am in serious trouble.
Anyway, today I have successfully tricked my brain into learning some new SQL and putting together a rather overdue PR, and it only actually took two hours once I got going...