To be clear, I will always be proud to be a #trans woman. I’ll always be proud of being #transgender. But #transition itself I view as a phase, and one that will have a very definite ending. And I am anxious for that ending to come.
And this is weirdly isolating. I don't have much in common with post hatching trans people, but neither do I have much in common with those who have finished. It's the waiting purgatory to finish my journey that is the absolute worst.
Realizing that that ending could be 2027 in a best-case scenario ... or beyond ... is ... yeah, I am struggling to conceptualize that right now. I want transition to not be defining my life as much as it is right now, and I want to just be able to enjoy my existence.
I knew going in that this was a long term process that was going to take years, and I am gonna be okay eventually with this because I really don't have any other choice. But holy hell I am having a hard time with it right now.